It has been a little over a month since I got married.
Surprisingly, I have not had a lot of people ask me,
“How is married life?”
But usually when people ask you that, people always say. ” It is good.”
What does that even mean? What does it mean “it is good?”
So here is my answer to that question:
Married life is good because I feel this sense of security.
I find comfort in my husband, knowing that we are in this for life.
I find peace in marriage and my husband in the mist of uncertainties.
Married life is fun.
Even the simple things in life I find joy knowing that I have someone to do with it.
Married life is humbling.
I have never felt more challenged and inadequate in so many ways.
I am constantly reminded that there is still so much more I have to learn and grow.
Married life at times feel like an end to something.
At the end of this month, I am legally changing my name to Park.
Literally days before I turn 30.
Even though I am excited for this new decade of being a Park,
it feels like an end to 29 years of being a Kim.
If anything, it just makes me miss my parents more and wish they were closer.
Married life is a beginning to new dreams and visions.
I spent this morning praying and envisioning what is to come this year.
The possibilities are endless.
I have come to realize that marriage is something that is not big in height but in depth.
On the outside, it might seem like nothing really has changed. Maybe that’s why people answer with
“It is good.” because eh, there is nothing really much to it.
But the truth is, I feel like there is so much more.
Ultimately,
Married life is good because I am excited for the journey ahead and what it will produce.
Every fight, every argument, every conviction, every revelation, every joyous moment
I know that it will lead me to be the woman of God I have always dreamed to be.
Julia Anne Kim 